Three days into Lupron and I can definitely tell it's working. I feel downright...menopausal. Reminiscent of the first two IVF cycles and of my symptoms after the abrupt halt of my menstrual cycle caused by ABVD chemotherapy for my Hodgkin's 9 years ago (thankfully temporary - my cycles returned approximately a year after stopping treatment).
Needless to say, I don't have positive associations to hot flashes, night sweats, and the general all-over-achiness I am currently feeling. I spent last night sweating, tossing and turning, waking up poor Will repeatedly.
In my groggy attempt at positive reframing around 3AM, I thought, "Well, at least I know it's not a placebo." That's the best I could come up with in the pre-dawn hours.
This morning, I reflected on my ability to "forget" the harder aspects of IVF. Call it some kind of protective mechanism, I suppose. For me, Lupron is one of the more physically unpleasant parts of the process (that and the dreaded PIO shots). Note to self: I will start to feel better once I start the stims. Another note to self: Take it one day at a time. Stay sane. You can do this.
Mo
how crazy that you are having all this night action with the Lupron. I'm sorry to hear you are having trouble sleeping. I haven't got those, but I'm queasy and tired all the time. I've been blaming the antibiotic though.
ReplyDeletehang in there! it's just a few days more and I hope it gets better.
Thanks for stopping by Clio. Can I ask what antibiotic are you taking? is it part of your cycle or in addiiton? I keep thinking I need to call the IVF nurses to go over what I'm supposed to do when...I know Will and I will both take antibiotics but I think it's later (I think). Hmmm...sounds like I should check it out to be certain.
ReplyDeleteMo
I just stopped Lupron on Friday, thank goodness. I even went to the Dr. I was feeling so badly. Besides the stupid hot flashes, I felt queasy, nauseous all the time and about as intelligent as a bag of rocks. Of course, some of the crappyness could have been a result of the fact that my lovely thyroid decided that what little hormones it was pumping was just too much to bear, and I started on an increased does of synthroid on Friday.
ReplyDeleteBTW, I'm a microbiologist and just looooove your petri dish :)
i can't even remember the SEs from the meds! ;) This must be some sort of self-preservation or something. The ER was the worst for me...I was way too edematous afterwards. Maybe it's b/c my chemo was in the form of IM injections daily, but the meds didn't seem to bother me....
ReplyDelete...maybe mine were placebos? hmmmm.....
(Just a side note that I tagged you to do a Bucket List... see my 11/18/2008 post on www.waitingfortheukulele.blogspot.com.)
ReplyDeleteGreenEggsNHam
Hi Mo,
ReplyDeletethanks for stopping by. I was actually wondering how you were doing these past few days. You described it well, like being hit by a truck!
I'm feeling a little better today though. The antibiotic is doxycycline. I am pretty sure part of my crappyness is due to that. Check with your clinic when you are both supposed to do it.
No, you are not selfish, it also made me feel better to know someone else out there is having a similar experience. We can do this! Just a few more days...
by the way, when do you stop your Lupron?