8dp3dt: bargaining

Dear Universe,

I do not want to seem ungrateful for the multiple job offers and for the grant that now seems nearly approved. I have high appreciation for these things that have appeared in my life. And I realize that I've put some effort into achieving them.

Which is also what worries me. While I appreciate your recent occupational and educational largesse, I worry that it might cause some confusion on your part as to my priorities. From a quick observation, it might appear that I value my career and education over pregnancy and childrearing, but this would be an erroneous conclusion to draw.

My priorities remain the same: I, and Will, wish with all our hearts to have a family. We want this above all else.

Really, Universe, it shouldn't have to be a dichotomous decision, an either/or. After all, we are in the year 2009. But if you're feeling that I've already been given enough - or too much, even - I'd be happy to turn in my degrees, and the career opportunities, to have this one thing. Just one child. Will and I have even joked that we'll settle for half of a child at this point. But ha ha! we're kind of kidding about that, so please don't go and give us half a child!

Seriously, Universe, we could call it a fair trade: my professional life for a baby. If that's what it takes, just let me know.

So just to reiterate (and Universe, I apologize if I'm getting repetitive, but I just want to make sure I'm clear), please do not get confused by my recent luck in all areas not child-related. Don't count it against me. Although I do love my work, I'm sure I'm also trying to compensate for the lack of the one thing I wish for most, which is also the one thing I can't seem to achieve, no matter how hard I work at it.

Please, Universe, give it some consideration. We won't, I promise you, take a pregnancy or child for granted. Ever.

Sincerely,

Mo