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Friday, May 15, 2009

Finding the middle ground

I'm trying something new this two week wait. Usually, I vacillate between thinking I'm pregnant and getting very excited, to thinking I'm not, and feeling low.

The beta is next Friday and so I have one week left of this two week wait. Instead of being all over the place emotionally, I'm going to try to find a middle path. I'm trying to not predict the outcome either way and instead to just focus on what is now: that I have three embryos inside of me. At this moment in time, and for the coming week, I have the possibility that I might be pregnant. I'm not going to assume that I am and start planning estimated due dates or how it would work with my grant, etc., or get all wrapped up in worries that I'm not and start thinking about next steps and how that would feel and how I would regroup (at least I'm going to try to avoid these things).

For this moment, at least, I am tuning in to what is true right now. I am honoring the possibility. What is true right now is that maybe there is life inside me. Just maybe. Makes me smile a little to think of it.

Mo

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20 comments:

  1. My Endo JourneyMay 15, 2009 at 10:08 AM

    Great way to think about it!

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  2. PetruciaMay 15, 2009 at 10:32 AM

    Mo, this feels absolutely right. Open and honoring the possibility. that is powerful in itself.
    Hope you can navigate this middle ground.
    I'm here crossing fingers and toes for you on this one. ;)

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  3. MissMVKMay 15, 2009 at 10:37 AM

    Great, positive perspective! I'll have to try this 'middle ground' business.

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  4. BrennaMay 15, 2009 at 11:12 AM

    Sounds like a very good plan to me! I'll try adopting a similar strategy myself in a few days. Sending lots of good vibes in your direction~~~

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  5. DoraMay 15, 2009 at 11:25 AM

    Sounds good. Good work, Dr. Mo!

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  6. DAVsMay 15, 2009 at 11:29 AM

    No day but today, Mo :)

    Thinking of you!

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  7. Soko's Journey to ParenthoodMay 15, 2009 at 11:51 AM

    That is the best way to make it through the wait. Good for you. Just keep smiling and thinking that the future could be much different and relax that is is in nature and God's hands at this time.

    You can do it.

    Take it easy and take care,
    Tracy

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  8. MeganMay 15, 2009 at 2:50 PM

    Good luck!!! Easier said than done I'm sure.

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  9. BarefootMay 15, 2009 at 3:57 PM

    I love this! The highs and lows can be so impossibly tough.

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  10. chickletMay 15, 2009 at 4:15 PM

    You're in a good mindset. Crossing my fingers and hoping for you you get to an even getter one:-)

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  11. MichelleMay 15, 2009 at 6:29 PM

    That is a great way of thinking about it! I am impressed with you restraint.

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  12. AnonymousMay 15, 2009 at 7:38 PM

    that sounds great - you are inspiring me to do the same

    ((HUGS))

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  13. PeachesMay 15, 2009 at 10:26 PM

    Mo, love your view! Way to go and let go to honor this moment you are in--with three sweet embryos within :) Following you....

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  14. MartinMay 16, 2009 at 3:53 AM

    I get anxious just thinking about others in the 2ww. Good luck.

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  15. Good Egg HatchedMay 16, 2009 at 7:40 AM

    This sounds so very healthy and I hope it sticks around until your test! Honoring the possibility sounds just right.

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  16. AnonymousMay 16, 2009 at 9:18 AM

    this is very healthy. it is what it is, right? 3 embryos inside of you. everything else just adds to the stress and pressure of the situation.

    still thinking lots of positive thoughts over here :)

    xoxo

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  17. AnonymousMay 16, 2009 at 10:58 AM

    Hoping the path is easy to find, those highs and lows are exhausting! You will be ok, no matter what. Take care!

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  18. EricaMay 16, 2009 at 11:25 AM

    Fingers crossed, Mo!

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  19. sarahMay 16, 2009 at 12:39 PM

    Maybe losing the chance to POAS has stopped the usual loop from forming!
    Viva possiblities!

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  20. bunnyMay 17, 2009 at 8:31 AM

    Hope "staying middle" is bringing you peace and calm during your tww. I'm rooting for you!

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