Thursday, March 18, 2010

Jumping out of my skin

I am so nervous today.

Dreams all night that we got no blastocysts. That we got two blastocysts. That they lost the blastocysts. Keep replaying what the embryologist said yesterday in my mind...trying to find more information in the words, like they are some sort of ancient rune or something.

She said yesterday there were two early blasts, but too early to grade or biopsy and that there were a few more even earlier stage (grade 1 and 2 or something, which I think means meansy, weensy, baby blasts?). And a couple of morulas in addition. Basically, she said we'll get between two and eight blastocysts (between TWO and EIGHT? That's um, a big range!). "But really, you won't get eight." Akkk! Then why even mention the number eight?

Meanwhile, have been willing the New York Six to stay alive through the thaw and keep on growing. Will find out how many of them remain today as well.

It's only 7:30AM in Denver, so no news yet...

I have a patient coming in momentarily and then will be attending (but probably not listening attentively to) psychology grand rounds at the hospital.

After that, you can just betcha I'll be calling the embryology lab, if I haven't received a message from them yet.

If only sheer will could make embryos divide fast and properly, you know?

More to come.

Tick.Tock.Tick.Tock.Tick.Tock.

Mo

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17 comments:

  1. Am thinking of you and keeping everything crossed!

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  2. Gawd, if sheer will could do it imagine what we could accomplish!

    I hope you get great news...you have a lot of potential there, a LOT of potential.

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  3. I'm happy that the NY 6 made it out safely and that all is going forward. And mostly, I'm just hoping like hell that you get a great outcome to this process.

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  4. Sending BIG LOVE
    and hoping with all of my heart for big big beautiful numbers Mo.

    xoxxo
    Kate

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  5. Come on NY6! Waiting impatiently with you.

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  6. C'mon NY-6! Thaw and grow nicely! You must be going nuts right about now. I'm still keeping everything crossed that you get a bigger than expected number of blasts...I can hardly wait for more updates!

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  7. Holding my breath. And hoping as hard as I can.

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  8. Thinking of you and hoping hoping hoping.

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  9. sometimes I wonder why they even tell you guesses. I am hoping for closer to 8!
    by the way 'new york 6' good one!

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  10. Patiently waiting for an update. Everything is crossed for you!!

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  11. Oh...the waiting is so excruciating! Hang in there MO....

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  12. I NEED TO KNOW!!!!!! THE WAITING IS KILLING ME!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!

    Crossing my fingers for you guys!

    Kami

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  13. You know we're all waiting anxiously here with you!

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  14. Well?????? Update pleeeeeeeze!

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  15. Argh, if only we could do it through sheer will, the IF community would completely eradicate infertility! Two to eight blastocysts is AMAZING!!!

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