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Wednesday, November 10, 2010

7w3d ultrasound: it's over

Went to the RE, who didn't like what he saw and sent us on to a radiologist who specializes in OB at the hospital.

Just to confirm.

Both saw debris in the gestational sac. No yolk sac. Small subchorionic hemorrhage. No fetal pole, let alone heartbeat. Not sure what to think of Monday's reassurance ultrasound.

But it's clear now.

Pregnancy #6 is over.

They are adding me to the OR schedule for today.

Will and I can't believe it. We thought this one might be the one that made it.

Walking between the two doctors' office buildings, I thought, Maybe I haven't woken up yet. Maybe this is a bad dream.

But it's not. It's happening again.

Mo

*****
Update: Surgery rescheduled for tomorrow. I forgot completely that I'm on lovenox and aspirin. My RE wants to wait 24 hours for the lovenox to get out of my system and will fit me in tomorrow afternoon for the procedure.

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323 comments:

  1. MindyNovember 10, 2010 at 8:42 AM

    I am so sorry. You're both in my thoughts.

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  2. gwinneNovember 10, 2010 at 8:42 AM

    Fuck. I am so sorry, Mo. There aren't words. I'm just so sorry. I thought you'd have your happy ending this time. You and Will are in my heart and thoughts.

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  3. Ms2Mrs..back to MsNovember 10, 2010 at 8:45 AM

    i am so so sorry.

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  4. Mrs. LemonNovember 10, 2010 at 8:46 AM

    Actually crying for you over here. I can't beleive it. I thought this was your magic bean. So incredibly sorry.

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  5. Good Egg HatchedNovember 10, 2010 at 8:46 AM

    This is so unfair. I am shocked and so sad for you. There aren't any words that fit. I'm just so sorry. I hope that peace and comfort find you today as you endure what no one should ever have to.

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  6. MermaidNovember 10, 2010 at 8:54 AM

    Oh, I am so very sorry. I wish there was some way to ease your pain. You two are in my thoughts.

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  7. Auntie EmNovember 10, 2010 at 8:57 AM

    My heart just dropped into my stomach. Dammit, this is so unfair. There are no words.

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  8. RoseNovember 10, 2010 at 8:57 AM

    I've been a lurker for ages, but just had to tell you how sorry I am for your devastating loss. The shock it is making me feel nauseous, which I am sure is nothing next to what you are feeling. So very, very sorry.

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  9. AmyGNovember 10, 2010 at 8:58 AM

    I am so terribly sorry. My heart is with you.

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  10. nurslouisaNovember 10, 2010 at 8:58 AM

    Oh Mo-
    I am so very, very sorry. I have been following your story but never commented. I was really pulling for this one you have been through so much. My heart breaks for you.

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  11. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 8:59 AM

    So sorry to read this. I also thought this would be the one. My thoughts are with you.

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  12. loribethNovember 10, 2010 at 9:01 AM

    Oh, Mo -- I thought this might be it too. I sure hoped it would be. I am so, so sorry. :(

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  13. AmyNovember 10, 2010 at 9:03 AM

    I am so, so, sorry. There are no words. You and Will are in my prayers.

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  14. CassieNovember 10, 2010 at 9:03 AM

    Oh my god Mo, I can't believe this. What an awful shock. I'm so very, very sorry.

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  15. Dandle DreamsNovember 10, 2010 at 9:03 AM

    Oh no. As soon as I saw the title my heart sank. This is not fair to you or Will.

    After trying so long, after hoping so hard, after years of injections and waiting and pain and hurt.

    This is not what you deserve.

    What a tragic ending to such a promising cycle.

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  16. GilNovember 10, 2010 at 9:03 AM

    God dammit. Oh Mo, Will... I don't know what to say. I really don't. There are no words, I know. This is sorta coming out of the blue; I honestly thought this was it for you guys. I truly did. My heart, my prayers, my thoughts and my love go out to you both as you endure this most terrible day. Hold onto each other, and know that if some of us could be there, we would be holding onto you too.

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  17. LisaNovember 10, 2010 at 9:03 AM

    Oh my God, Mo. I am so devastated for you and Will. There are no words...this is so unfair. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts. I'm so very sorry.

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  18. MerNovember 10, 2010 at 9:04 AM

    I'm heartbroken for you. I am just so, so sorry. You and Will are in my thoughts.

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  19. Mrs. SmithNovember 10, 2010 at 9:05 AM

    I have been following you for a while but don't usually comment. I'm so very sorry. My heart breaks for you and Will.

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  20. poppy.f.seedNovember 10, 2010 at 9:05 AM

    oh dear, I am terribly sorry.

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  21. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 9:06 AM

    So so sad. Just not bloody fair.

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  22. PamNovember 10, 2010 at 9:06 AM

    I'm a lurker who has been rooting for you for a long time. My heart sunk when I saw this post. I'm so, so sorry. Devastated for you. :(

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  23. Mrs IVF/Mrs InbetweenNovember 10, 2010 at 9:07 AM

    Oh Mo. I'm so so sorry. I can't believe it...I too thought this was it for you. So damn unfair. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Will.

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  24. 2cttNovember 10, 2010 at 9:07 AM

    So sorry for your loss. Hugs 2ctt

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  25. meemawfishNovember 10, 2010 at 9:15 AM

    I am so sorry. Here is a hug (((())) for you and Will. I will keep you in my prayers.

    Meemaw

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  26. Secret SloperNovember 10, 2010 at 9:16 AM

    Oh God, what can I say? My heart bleeds for you both. This is so cruel and unfair.

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  27. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 9:16 AM

    Oh Mo and Will....I don't know what to say. When I saw your post, it felt like a bucket of ice water being dumped over my head. I feel shocked. I was sure this was it. I am so, so sorry.

    There are not enough tears for what you have been through.

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  28. NepsiNovember 10, 2010 at 9:18 AM

    The only thing that comes to mind is profanity at the moment. I am so sorry. I can't even imagine your pain right now.

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  29. TeeJayNovember 10, 2010 at 9:18 AM

    I just can't beieve this. Especially after the scan where you saw the h/b. I'm so sorry..and confused and angry that this is happening to you. I have tears in my eyes and my heart for you. I'm so sorry. And "sorry" just doesn't cut it, but it's all I can say. (((hugs)))

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  30. Daisy7412November 10, 2010 at 9:23 AM

    I am so sorry. My heart aches for you both and please know that you do not walk through this alone. Many people are thinking of you are praying for you. I know it doesn't make it better....

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  31. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 9:25 AM

    I am so very very sorry.

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  32. B.November 10, 2010 at 9:26 AM

    I am so sorry. Very deeply sorry. Please know that a whole lot of people are mourning your loss and keeping you in their thoughts and prayers, even though we've not "met" in a conventional sense.

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  33. MrsSpockNovember 10, 2010 at 9:27 AM

    Oh MO, so very sorry. It's just not fair.

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  34. Nick and KristiNovember 10, 2010 at 9:29 AM

    Mo---I am in shock right now....This is devestating, cruel, and unfair...I am so very very sorry...You and your hubs are in my prayers:(

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  35. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 9:30 AM

    I'm so sorry. Praying for you today.

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  36. athenaNovember 10, 2010 at 9:33 AM

    hugs i am so very sorry

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  37. MelanieNovember 10, 2010 at 9:36 AM

    What can possibly be said? That I'm deeply, deeply sorry seems woefully insufficient. I am sending you thoughts of strength and peace and, hopefully, clarity.

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  38. ksNovember 10, 2010 at 9:37 AM

    I am so incredibly sorry! I really thought everything was going to be fine. Oh Mo I'm just so sorry! Please know I am thinking of you both. You are in my heart and my prayers.

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  39. Mrs.JoeNovember 10, 2010 at 9:38 AM

    My heart is breaking for you. I'm so so sorry.

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  40. irrationalexuberanceNovember 10, 2010 at 9:40 AM

    There's nothing I can say except I am so, so sorry. I'm keeping you in my thoughts today.

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  41. niobeNovember 10, 2010 at 9:42 AM

    There are no possible words. This is just about the most heartbreaking post I've ever read.

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  42. EsperanzaNovember 10, 2010 at 9:42 AM

    I'm am so sorry for your loss. I so thought this was the one. I don't know what else to say - there are no words. You are in my thoughts and in my heart. I'm so sorry.

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  43. SerenityNovember 10, 2010 at 9:44 AM

    Here from Gil's blog. I'm so, SO sorry for your loss.

    xoxo

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  44. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 9:44 AM

    Been following you guys almost obsessively...I check your posts first thing every morning... N the hb scan that was snuck in was so uplifting. But this post, This one made me physically ill. I am so very, very sorry.... but please... do not lose hope, and hold to each other. You are going to be a mom. I can feel it.

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  45. DoraNovember 10, 2010 at 9:47 AM

    FUCK! Sitting here in shock. I'm so sorry. I wish there was something I could do. This is so incredibly awful and unfair. Please let me know if there's anything at all I can do.

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  46. BrendaNovember 10, 2010 at 9:51 AM

    I'm speechless, and sad, and confused. This is only the tiniest fraction of what you are going through, I know. I am so very, very sorry.

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  47. RoccieNovember 10, 2010 at 9:53 AM

    Oh Mo. Oh my heart breaks with yours.

    I am so very sorry this baby is gone. I am so sorry for your loss.

    All my love to you, Will and the baby.

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  48. ElizabethNovember 10, 2010 at 9:55 AM

    Dammit. Mo, I am so, so sorry.

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  49. Mrs. XNovember 10, 2010 at 9:57 AM

    I am so, so sorry to read this. I've been there and it is just a terrible, terrible place. But, you will get through this. My thoughts are with you and Will.

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  50. What IF?November 10, 2010 at 9:57 AM

    Mo, I'm sitting with you and Will, in shock, in disbelief, in anger, in devastation, in sadness. I just can't even imagine the torture and pain you're experiencing. All words seem so woefully insufficient now. I'm praying for healing and comfort and peace as you endure what no human being was meant to endure. With love,
    -What IF?

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  51. lovemyabbie@gmail.comNovember 10, 2010 at 9:59 AM

    WELL CRAP. I'm so sorry for you and will keep you in my prayers :(

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  52. LindaNovember 10, 2010 at 9:59 AM

    What devastating news. My heart is hurting for you and Will. We are crying along with you and all the others who were hoping for good news. Just doesn't seem fair. So sorry!!

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  53. Glass Case of EmotionNovember 10, 2010 at 10:02 AM

    Long time reader. And I am just so so so so so so sorry for this news. My heart hurts for you. This just isn't fair.

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  54. EmNovember 10, 2010 at 10:02 AM

    I know there are no words I can give you to comfort you. Please know that I am heartbroken for you and the unfairness of this all. You are loved and prayed for by many, even those you don't know.

    I am so sorry.

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  55. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 10:05 AM

    No no no no no no no no. Eagerly checked in first thing on the west coast expecting good news, and am just in shock. Only a pale shadow of what you must be feeling. This is horribly horribly unfair, and I will be thinking of you both often in the coming days.

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  56. StacieNovember 10, 2010 at 10:07 AM

    Oh, Mo! I am so very sorry. Sending hugs and a lot of love your way.

    So unfair...

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  57. Momma, PhDNovember 10, 2010 at 10:10 AM

    I thought this one was going to be the one that made it too. Praying for you both.

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  58. DanaNovember 10, 2010 at 10:11 AM

    Bless your hearts! Im SO sorry :(

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  59. My Endo JourneyNovember 10, 2010 at 10:12 AM

    Shit. I am just completely sick at this news. I am so very sorry Mo and will. My thoughts are with you both. Really, this isn't fair. :(

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  60. MaryNovember 10, 2010 at 10:13 AM

    So so incredibly sorry, Mo. My first comment, so sad that it has to be this. You and Will are in my heart.

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  61. Erin BakalNovember 10, 2010 at 10:13 AM

    I'm just sick for you. Sorry simply doesn't cover it. Hold each other tight and cry hard if you need to. Sending prayers for healing.

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  62. Mel.November 10, 2010 at 10:15 AM

    I'm so very sorry! I wish there was something I could do to make it all better....

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  63. babyinterruptedNovember 10, 2010 at 10:15 AM

    Oh, no, no, no. I'm so very sorry.

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  64. Life HappensNovember 10, 2010 at 10:16 AM

    I am so sorry! You and Will are in my thoughts. ((Hugs))

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  65. KathrynNovember 10, 2010 at 10:19 AM

    I have been following your story hoping for the very best for you and your husband. I am so very sorry for your loss.

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  66. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 10:21 AM

    Mo, I am so so sorry. I can't believe this has happened. I am the anon who had similar low betas a couple of days ahead of you. It was game over for me a few days ago but seeing your progress had somehow kept me going. I'm now crying for two babies and am furious with the world. I don't know what to say Mo - You are in my thoughts and am praying for you and Will and your little one. Vanesa x

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  67. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 10:21 AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. I feel kicked in the stomach reading your words. I am so sorry.

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  68. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 10:25 AM

    I have never ever left a comment on a blog before, but this time I will since I am crying for you behind my laptop right now. I feel so sorry for you and your husband. I hope you will recover from this devastating loss and wish you all the warmth, luck and optimism for the future

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  69. LindsayNovember 10, 2010 at 10:27 AM

    My heart aches for you and your DH.
    Sooo sooo sad. Lots of hugs. You will be in my thoughts and prayers during this difficult time.

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  70. GrayNovember 10, 2010 at 10:27 AM

    lurker here .... i am in shock ... my heart aches for you & will. i am so very sorry for ya'll loss.
    keep ya'll in my heart, thoughts & prayers.

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  71. JennNovember 10, 2010 at 10:29 AM

    I'm so, so heartbreakingly sorry for you both. I can't believe it. I know there is nothing anyone can say to make it better, but know we are all thinking of you. De-lurking to let you know I've been pulling for you for a long time now and I was SO hoping this was it for you. Please know you are in our thoughts.

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  72. BellaNovember 10, 2010 at 10:31 AM

    Nonononononononono!!!! I'm so sorry. I'm screaming inside for you. So so sorry.

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  73. LesleyNovember 10, 2010 at 10:33 AM

    Hi, I clicked over from Nick and Kristy's blog to tell you how sorry I am. This is so rotten and unfair and nobody deserves it. My heart and thoughts are with you.

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  74. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 10:35 AM

    I've been lurking for awhile, but I just felt compelled to say how very sorry I am for your loss. You're wonderful people, and I know you'll make it through this pain somehow.

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  75. MelissiaNovember 10, 2010 at 10:36 AM

    Dear Mo and Will,
    I am so sorry. I too, really thought that this was the one for you guys. I am thinking of you both.

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  76. DeniseNovember 10, 2010 at 10:37 AM

    Long time lurker here too. I am so so sorry. This seems so unfair and confusing, especially after your reassuring ultrasound on Monday. Thinking of you.

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  77. TrinityNovember 10, 2010 at 10:40 AM

    Deepest apologies and much, much love to you both...

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  78. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 10:43 AM

    NO NO NO NO!!!!
    I am so so so sorry.
    It just isnt fair!
    MLG

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  79. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 10:44 AM

    I'm so so sorry :(

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  80. sholaNovember 10, 2010 at 10:46 AM

    I am so sorry. Just know that someone you never met is crying for you right now.

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  81. UnknownNovember 10, 2010 at 10:48 AM

    Oh god Mo, I'm crying here for you. I don't know what to say. I know the bad dream you cannot wake up from feeling.

    You know you will have your baby someday, with the world we live in and the resources we have, its inevitable, its just a question of how much unbelievable torture the universe decides to put you through first.

    You are not mourning this baby alone, all of us are with you.

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  82. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 10:48 AM

    Dear Mo and Will, I was just checking in hoping for the good news of your ultrasound today. I am so sorry. There are no words. I am thinking of you. My deepest sympathies. Karen

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  83. CourtneyNovember 10, 2010 at 10:49 AM

    Mo, my sincere apologies as you go through this heartbreaking time.

    Sending so much love to you both *hugs*

    Crying with you

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  84. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 10:54 AM

    I am just devastated for you. I will keep you both in my thoughts.

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  85. Barely SaneNovember 10, 2010 at 10:55 AM

    So so so sorry. I thought this was it too. :(

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  86. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 10:57 AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you and your husband.

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  87. Stefanie BlakelyNovember 10, 2010 at 10:57 AM

    I stop by and read from time to time, but don't think I've ever commented before-- I couldn't click that red x today before telling you both how very sorry I am. I started sobbing as I read your post and can't even imagine the pain you are going through. Thinking of you.

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  88. "Jay"November 10, 2010 at 10:57 AM

    no, no, no! I just can't believe it. I am so sorry. I wish there was a silver lining here, but there isn't. I am thinking of you and hope the d&c isn't too horrible today.

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  89. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 11:01 AM

    Oh my God.
    My heart breaks for you. I'm so so sorry for your devastating loss.

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  90. zerodollNovember 10, 2010 at 11:08 AM

    Another de-lurking here. I'm crying at work for you, my heart aches. I'm so sorry. Take care of yourself and Will.

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  91. AmberNovember 10, 2010 at 11:18 AM

    Words can't express how sorry I am. I'll be thinking of you.

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  92. LucyNovember 10, 2010 at 11:19 AM

    I'm so sorry. I know at this point nothing any of us says is going to "fix it" for you. You'll be in my prayers.

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  93. MissMVKNovember 10, 2010 at 11:19 AM

    I am so sorry, Mo. And so ANGRY that this is happening to you and Will again. Nothing about this is right and I wish there was something, anything I could do to help. For now, please know I am thinking of you and keeping you close to my heart. xoxo

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  94. winter blueNovember 10, 2010 at 11:20 AM

    I'm so sorry Mo. I know there are no words...

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  95. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 11:21 AM

    De-lurking from Illinois to let you know how very, very sad I was to read your post. Went to the computer first thing this morning hoping for good news, and am so, so sorry to read your post. Please know you and Will are in my thoughts and prayers, and judging from the number of comments, many others as well.

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  96. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 11:21 AM

    De-lurking from Illinois to let you know how very, very sad I was to read your post. Went to the computer first thing this morning hoping for good news, and am so, so sorry to read your post. Please know you and Will are in my thoughts and prayers, and judging from the number of comments, many others as well.

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  97. PieNovember 10, 2010 at 11:22 AM

    Oh no. Mo and Will, I am so very very sorry. There are just no words to fully capture this. (hugs)

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  98. ShelbyNovember 10, 2010 at 11:25 AM

    I'm so sorry.

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  99. Wanna BeeNovember 10, 2010 at 11:25 AM

    It is unbearable to even attempt to imagine your pain. I am just so sorry.

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  100. Marcia (123 blog)November 10, 2010 at 11:31 AM

    I am really, really, really sorry to read this. I'm actually incredulous - it's a very bad nightmare for me too.

    Big hugs to you and Will - take the time to just be with one another and grieve together

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  101. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 11:36 AM

    So very sorry for your loss. A stranger's thoughts are with you.

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  102. kdactylNovember 10, 2010 at 11:38 AM

    Oh Mo...I'm heartbroken for you an Will. I'm so very sorry.

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  103. lastchanceivfNovember 10, 2010 at 11:39 AM

    Mo....I'm just gutted for you. Yesterday my friend lost her baby at 40 weeks and today I just wonder why the world is so cruel sometimes, why there is so much pain and loss. I know there is nothing I can say... Just know that I am so so sorry.

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  104. Debby@Just BreatheNovember 10, 2010 at 11:41 AM

    Each day I spend a lot of time reading posts from BLM. I try really hard to be strong but today your news has shattered me. I am crying so deep inside of my soul.
    I am so sorry for your loss. Please if you could email me I would love to send you a handkerchief from For Your Tears.
    dpucci9972@gmail.com
    ((HUGS)) Please know that I care and I am praying for your comfort and strength.

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  105. ClaudiaNovember 10, 2010 at 11:44 AM

    Oh Mo - I can't believe it. I'm so, so sorry. Just so so sorry.

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  106. JacksmomNovember 10, 2010 at 11:49 AM

    I am so so so sorry.

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  107. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 11:50 AM

    I am so so sorry. I hope you two find a way through this. This should really not be happening. Best wishes, you are in my thoughts.

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  108. dillardNovember 10, 2010 at 11:50 AM

    So so sorry. Sending you as many healing thoughts and vibes as I can.

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  109. ~M~November 10, 2010 at 11:53 AM

    I'm so terribly sorry. My heart is hurting for you both and I'll continue to keep you in my thoughts.

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  110. Amy in PANovember 10, 2010 at 11:55 AM

    Oh my god. I am so sorry, Mo and Will.

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  111. KNovember 10, 2010 at 12:02 PM

    I am so so sorry, you are in my thoughts.

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  112. tireegal68November 10, 2010 at 12:03 PM

    Dear Mo and Will, I'm so so sorry for this continued heartbreak. Praying for you and sending you hugs.

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  113. MeNovember 10, 2010 at 12:07 PM

    I'm so sorry Mo - I'm thinking of you today...take care. Hugs

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  114. MaggieNovember 10, 2010 at 12:09 PM

    Delurking here to say I'm so so sorry. How devastating. I too am crying for you. No one deserves this.

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  115. A New BeginningNovember 10, 2010 at 12:09 PM

    I am so sorry for you all. You are in my thoughts.

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  116. BrennaNovember 10, 2010 at 12:28 PM

    My heart goes out to you all. I so wish I wasn't reading this news. Damn it, it just isn't FAIR.

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  117. BarefootNovember 10, 2010 at 12:31 PM

    Oh, no. I am so, so sorry.

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  118. juliane2004November 10, 2010 at 12:33 PM

    Shit. I am so sorry.

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  119. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 12:36 PM

    I, like so many others, have been following your story from the shadows. I'm shocked and saddened by this unexpected turn of events. May you and Will find comfort in each other as you weather this incredible storm. My heart is with you both!

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  120. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 12:39 PM

    Mo and Will,
    I am so sorry, it is not fair. You are in my prayers. Lynne

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  121. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 12:40 PM

    This is too, too cruel. I am devastated for you both. This is not the end of the road for you but this pregnancy should not have ended this way. My heart goes out to yours xoxoxo elliej

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  122. quadmomNovember 10, 2010 at 12:40 PM

    I am so incredibly sorry. You and Will are in my thoughts and prayers. I can't imagine how you're feeling right now ... this is horrible and so incredibly unfair. I am so sorry, Mo.

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  123. KristinaNovember 10, 2010 at 12:43 PM

    This sucks so hard. I'm so so sorry. It's completely and totally unfair. My thoughts are with you and Will as you go through this painful time. Kristina

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  124. VNovember 10, 2010 at 12:43 PM

    I am sooooo sorry... I was thinking that this was it for you guys. After all you had gone through... I can't believe it's happening again. Hugs...

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  125. JenNovember 10, 2010 at 12:54 PM

    This is devastating ....I pray you find comfort and strength in eachother.

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  126. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 12:54 PM

    I am a long time reader never commenter who is de-lurking to tell you how very sorry I am. I cannot imagine what you are going through......You will be in my prayers

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  127. MarlaNovember 10, 2010 at 12:55 PM

    Oh, no! I'm so very sorry for both you and Will. This is horrendous! I am thinking of both of you today. *hugs*

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  128. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 12:57 PM

    I am so sorry. What a horrible day for you.

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  129. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 12:58 PM

    Mo & Will, my heart is breaking for you two...shattered. This is beyond a kick in the teeth. Thinking of you two as you walk through grief yet again.

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  130. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 1:00 PM

    Oh I'm just heartbroken for you. What a cruel turn of events. Hold each other close. Thinking of you both.

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  131. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 1:02 PM

    So very, very sorry - it's so unfair - praying and praying for both of you.

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  132. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 1:08 PM

    Stunned and so sad for you both. This is horrible, and I hope that you are surrounded by loving and supportive people who can let you yell and scream without trying to fix anything. Thinking about you.

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  133. JulieNovember 10, 2010 at 1:15 PM

    Oh Mo. I am so so sorry. This is just so awful and I don't know what else to say.

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  134. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 1:19 PM

    Thinking of you.

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  135. AllisonNovember 10, 2010 at 1:21 PM

    My heart is hurting for you and Will. I'm so very sorry.

    Allison

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  136. JenNovember 10, 2010 at 1:29 PM

    Dear Love,

    I'm so sorry for the loss that you and Will have experienced. I know it never gets easier. You're both in my thoughts and prayers.

    - Jen

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  137. LisaNovember 10, 2010 at 1:35 PM

    Mo & Will,

    There are no words for how sad and how very sorry I am to hear about the loss of your little babe. My thoughts are with you guys and sending bug virtual hugs your way.

    xo

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  138. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 1:37 PM

    So sorry, angry, pissed, heartbroken. I so wish this was going to be it for you. I'm sorry.

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  139. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 1:50 PM

    Mo - can't tell you how sorry I am. There are no words for this. I'm praying for you and Will. Take comfort in each other.

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  140. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 1:54 PM

    Mo,

    Oh noooo! That was all I could think when I read your post today.

    Delurking to say that I am so very sorry for your loss. You and Will have been through so much and I was sure that this would be your take home baby.

    Know that someone in Texas is thinking of you guys today...

    Jennifer LD

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  141. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 1:57 PM

    I am delurking to tell you how sorry I am that this has happened to you. I can't imagine how awful this is for you both. Know that someone in Ireland is thinking of you.....

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  142. danaNovember 10, 2010 at 1:58 PM

    sorry doesn't seem adequate, but fucking hell, i am so very sorry. thoughts and prayers for you both.

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  143. SilverNovember 10, 2010 at 2:05 PM

    I am SO sorry. There aren't words to make it better, but I am sending you a huge hug and am thinking of you and Will.

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  144. JoanneNovember 10, 2010 at 2:09 PM

    Another comment echoing what others have said. So sorry, can't believe it, not sure what to say. I've started to write something and erased it several times, doubtful that it's possible to say anything that could actually help. Wishing you better days coming, and do whatever you need to do to get through this difficult time.

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  145. SueNovember 10, 2010 at 2:09 PM

    Oh no. I am so sorry. I can't even come up with words. WTF? This is so so painful and I'm sorry you have to go through it. again. Hugs.

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  146. MichelleNovember 10, 2010 at 2:31 PM

    Delurking to say that I am so sorry. I have been following you and Will for awhile now.
    Peace,
    Michelle

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  147. Ms HeathenNovember 10, 2010 at 2:32 PM

    I really am so very sorry to read this. I cannot even begin to imagine all that you and Will must be feeling at the moment. Holding you in my thoughts.

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  148. OcGalNovember 10, 2010 at 2:40 PM

    I've never met you but I'm crying for you. I'm so sorry. This is just horrible news. I hate you infertility!

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  149. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 2:50 PM

    I am so sorry. I wish we each (the hundreds and maybe thousands of us who root for you every day) could take a little piece of this grief off of your shoulders to help you climb out from under this heavy burden. We'll all stay right here with you as long as you need us. Wish I had better words to send you.

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  150. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 2:54 PM

    Oh, God. I'm so very sorry, and I know that's nowhere near enough, I know there are no words.

    Hoping there are some answers for you in the very near future, wishing you peace and strength.

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  151. The Suburban PrincessNovember 10, 2010 at 3:01 PM

    I am stunned. This completely sucks. I can't believe that things changed for you so fast for the worst.

    So sorry that you and Will can't catch a break. My thoughts are with you two.

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  152. Bethany LenhartNovember 10, 2010 at 3:03 PM

    My heart is so heavy and sad. I can't even imagine what you must be feeling. I am so so sorry. I know there are no words to help. Just know there are many, many of us thinking and praying for you.

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  153. MabelbNovember 10, 2010 at 3:07 PM

    Oh no no no. I can't believe it. This is so unbelievably unfair. I'm so very sorry.

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  154. JackyNovember 10, 2010 at 3:15 PM

    I do not have the words to express my sorrow and anguish for you guys. This really sucks. Really really sucks. My prayers and thoughts are with you.

    I am soooo sorry to hear this.

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  155. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 3:16 PM

    oh Mo. This is cruel beyond words. I am so very sorry.
    xxxx

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  156. Betty MNovember 10, 2010 at 3:19 PM

    Here from Sprogblogger to say how sorry I am.

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  157. So-CalledNovember 10, 2010 at 3:20 PM

    My heart truly goes out to you and your husband today. I am so, so unbelievably sorry for your loss. Saying many prayers for you. xo

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  158. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 3:25 PM

    I am so devastated to read this. My heart goes out to you.

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  159. DoraNovember 10, 2010 at 3:45 PM

    Mo, please, please, please know that you did everything in your power for little #6. The fucking depot lupron, the diet, the supplements, the lovenox, etc. You did NOTHING WRONG. Thinking of you so much and sending lots of love to you both. xoxo

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  160. miriamNovember 10, 2010 at 3:46 PM

    NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

    I'm delurking to say I am devastated about this!!! I've been following your story about a year now and this post has brought me yelling and screaming and crying at the sky-daddy. Why oh why?! You must be so heart broken.

    This is so unfair. You deserve better than this.

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  161. UnknownNovember 10, 2010 at 3:49 PM

    Mo, saying I'm sorry once may just not be enough, I can't stop thinking about you and Will.

    One loss, or 6 losses, the grief is still as sharp, just as horrible in the first few hours. I remember the evening I discovered I had lost my baby, people kept calling me and other than two people (my mom and my best friend) I could not take anybody's calls. And talking to those two people helped, just a little bit

    I know you have Will (and Moxie), and others, and I pray they are helping you just a little bit.

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  162. AndreaNovember 10, 2010 at 3:52 PM

    Another lurker here. I'm so sorry to read this today. I have followed your story and so hoped this would work out for you. My heart goes out to you and your husband, it is really not fair....

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  163. mummydrNovember 10, 2010 at 3:56 PM

    I'm so sorry for you both, this is just too hard to bear. I have been following anxiously through your struggles and really cannot understand how this can keep happening.

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  164. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 3:58 PM

    This sucks. I am so sorry.
    KL

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  165. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 4:01 PM

    I'm so so sorry. I had so much hope for you.

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  166. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 4:08 PM

    My heart just broke into a million pieces for you. I was really hoping this was your sticky one. Please don't give up the fight. It took me 7 years to get 1 to stay put and I really think you'll get the rainbow you deserve. I just wish that rainbow was NOW damn it.

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  167. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 4:11 PM

    one more lurker coming to say how very sorry I am for you and Will. My heart is breaking for you and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  168. CateNovember 10, 2010 at 4:13 PM

    oh, no. I am so very sorry.

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  169. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 4:20 PM

    Words don't suffice. You both are so much in so very many people's thoughts.

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  170. KristenNovember 10, 2010 at 4:33 PM

    I am so very sorry and heartbroken for you. I seriously can't even imagine the pain you must feel. I sincerely hope nothing but the best for you and you husband, you certainly deserve it. My thoughts are definitely with you!

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  171. SharpiegirlNovember 10, 2010 at 4:46 PM

    Mo I am heartbroken for you. I'll go back to my lurking but I just wanted to give you a virtual hug and tell you how sorry I was for you loss.

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  172. DMNovember 10, 2010 at 4:49 PM

    So sorry to hear this. It just sucks. I am sending you my prayers and best wishes. Dee

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  173. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 4:53 PM

    i am so sorry. i wish you could be transported into the future, away from the pain of today. it is so unfair when life, so full of ups and downs, gives you so many downs in a row. there will be ups again, and until then, please know you are loved and cared for by so many.

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  174. PCOSChickNovember 10, 2010 at 5:01 PM

    HUGE **hugs** I am so very sorry & wish there was more that I could do then only say those words. You both will be in my thoughts.

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  175. MelissaNovember 10, 2010 at 5:01 PM

    No...please no....

    This is what must be running through all of our minds today. Not this. Not now. Not to Mo and Will. Please no.

    I am so so sorry.

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  176. CeejayNovember 10, 2010 at 5:22 PM

    Oh Mo, I'm so, so sad for you and Will. My heart feels very heavy for your loss and all you've been through.

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  177. Carrie1074November 10, 2010 at 5:33 PM

    Nothing anyone can say will help right now, but I am SO SORRY! My heart breaks for you both.

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  178. RDRNovember 10, 2010 at 5:35 PM

    I am so very sorry. This totally and utterly sucks. Keeping you both in my thoughts.

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  179. AuntieNovember 10, 2010 at 6:18 PM

    Devestating. I am sorry.

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  180. Missy FNovember 10, 2010 at 6:21 PM

    Words are not nearly enough, this happening to you again makes me question God, what is wrong with the world. I am so terribly sorry for your loss. Sending many healing & comforting thoughts to you and will.

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  181. R.November 10, 2010 at 6:44 PM

    Oh Mo, I have no words. I am so sorry. It hurst like he11 right now, but I can tell you from experience that it will get easier. it just takes time. I am thinking of you. This just isn't fair!

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  182. PatienceNovember 10, 2010 at 6:47 PM

    Oh, I am so very sorry. My heart goes out to you, as I have recently gone through a similar experience. I hope you are able to find some peace in the coming days. Take care of yourself.

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  183. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 6:51 PM

    Another long term lurker so sad to read your news. I am sorry Mo and Will.

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  184. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 6:54 PM

    I don't know what to say...thinking of you and very sorry for your loss. Life is brutal sometimes.

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  185. KateNovember 10, 2010 at 7:01 PM

    Hon, I know no words can help. You're both in my thoughts and prayers. I'll never get why shit happens to the nicest people.

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  186. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 7:02 PM

    Adding to the chorus of delurkers who want to express our deep sympathy. It's far too much for one couple to go through.

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  187. inBetweenNovember 10, 2010 at 7:04 PM

    Oh Mo and Will. This is unbelievable, and I am so incredibly sorry.

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  188. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 7:11 PM

    speechless. i'm so very sorry for your loss. :(

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  189. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 7:21 PM

    Oh Mo and Will,
    Sorry just doesn't seem to be a big enough word. Is there one? I keep checking in, in case they discovered there was a mistake and I just don't want to believe there wasn't one.
    I will be thinking of you so much.
    xo
    Brid

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  190. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 7:27 PM

    Mo, I am so sorry.

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  191. AdeleNovember 10, 2010 at 7:31 PM

    I'm here via a few blog friends we have in common. I'm so very sorry, Mo. It's the worst form of groundhog day. And it's so freaking unfair.

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  192. The Baby Chase ProjectNovember 10, 2010 at 7:33 PM

    Mo and Will.. this is not fair. I am mourning with you. I am so sorry. I was numb when I read your post. I don't want this to happen to you. I am so sorry.

    Hugs...

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  193. Brave IVF GirlNovember 10, 2010 at 7:50 PM

    I'm so sorry. *hugs*

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  194. TeresaNovember 10, 2010 at 8:12 PM

    My heart is breaking for you. I am so sorry.

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  195. MeganNovember 10, 2010 at 8:21 PM

    I'm so sorry. There really aren't any other words.

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  196. AlexicographerNovember 10, 2010 at 8:30 PM

    Mo, Will, I am so sorry. I'll be thinking of you.

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  197. ~MNovember 10, 2010 at 8:41 PM

    I'm terribly sorry to hear about this. I, too, was checking in for today's news.

    My heart aches for you and Will. I'm just so sorry.

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  198. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 8:43 PM

    Terribly sorry. Prayers are with you.

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  199. AnonymousNovember 10, 2010 at 8:45 PM

    Delurking to say I am so so sorry. I have been following for awhile and I was so sure this was it for you guys.

    So fucking unfair.

    You and Will are in my prayers.


    Kelley

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  200. MaggieNovember 10, 2010 at 9:24 PM

    Mo & Will - you have lots of people thinking of you - I am so very sad for what you are going through. On my way home I saw a a church sign that said Hope Uplifts - and I immediately thought of you. I know it will be awhile until you have hope again - but I will pray that it comes sooner than later. XOXO

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