Two years ago today, our 7th IVF transfer...
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Our last-ditch transfer. Marking six chromosomally blastocysts transferred at that point. The one before we moved to surrogacy. The one before we moved to donor egg. At that point, after six losses and six IVFs, I could not imagine that any of these embryos could possibly implant. I was really so past hope that I was not even running on fumes any more. Just trying again, because really, what else was there to do, given we wanted a family so very badly?
And then fast forward to the present moment.
To this amazing girl:
So full of life and wonder.
So completely herself.
Wow. Incredible. How did we get from there to here?
It is still hard to believe we got out the other side.
And yet...Magpie is definitely here, definitely present in our lives.
She couldn't be more real. And we couldn't be more lucky.
For those of you still in the trenches, it can happen. It can happen when you least expect it.
Mo
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Our last-ditch transfer. Marking six chromosomally blastocysts transferred at that point. The one before we moved to surrogacy. The one before we moved to donor egg. At that point, after six losses and six IVFs, I could not imagine that any of these embryos could possibly implant. I was really so past hope that I was not even running on fumes any more. Just trying again, because really, what else was there to do, given we wanted a family so very badly?
And then fast forward to the present moment.
To this amazing girl:
So full of life and wonder.
So completely herself.
Wow. Incredible. How did we get from there to here?
It is still hard to believe we got out the other side.
And yet...Magpie is definitely here, definitely present in our lives.
She couldn't be more real. And we couldn't be more lucky.
For those of you still in the trenches, it can happen. It can happen when you least expect it.
Mo
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She is just adorable! Every time I read a post about her I get misty eyed.
ReplyDeleteShe is just adorable. Every time you write about her I get misty eyed.
ReplyDeleteWORD. I had full embryo arrest for my first two IVF cycles. Nothing to transfer. Got a grant for travel, completed the third IVF cycle and froze everything. Got a flight out of the country soon after, settled into a city in the Middle East and promptly got pregnant on Femara only. (Well, that and over a year of Metformin.) WTF, for realz... I'm 23 weeks along.
ReplyDeleteLove, love, love this! You certainly deserve the happiness she has brought to you. I also love her short hair. Both of my kids had the same pixie cut (one still does) and I think it just looks adorable on little girls.
ReplyDeleteYes, yes, yes. I am so happy for your happiness and pulling for those who want to know it themselves.
ReplyDeleteShe is so stinkin' cute! Thanks so much for the encouragement! I love hearing stories of hope, I tend to not have much- so happy for you guys!
ReplyDeleteWhat happiness she has brought to your lives and thank you for the inspiration to those 'still in the trenches'. You are right about things happening when you least expect them to.
ReplyDeletePlease keep writing!
she is just so darlin'!!
ReplyDeletecells + magic = magpie
thanks for sharing these pictures! I am a fellow ccrm'er and have followed your journey since my own cycles at ccrm- I felt such loss and pain for you and your husband, and I feel such a real joy to know that you guys finally get to parent!
Fabulous daughter! Thank you for sharing her to us.
ReplyDeleteI needed that. Thank you. From the trenches.
ReplyDeleteMo,
ReplyDeleteThis was just beautiful! It's so hard to have hope sometimes while you're in the trenches. Your blog has been very helpful to me in our journey. We had our first ultrasound recently at 5wk2d and all we could see was an empty gestational sac. RE was very concerned that there was no yolk sac yet. If this doesn't work-- it would be our 4th recurrent loss. Reading your story really gives me hope that there might be a happy ending in the end. One can only hope.
C.
Dear C - 5w2d is SO SO early! esp. depending on the quality of the ultrasound. please don't give up hope yet and hang on for another week. by then, there should be a yolk sac and fetal pole. possible more, but at least that. thinking of you. if you feel up to it, please post back and let me know what they find. i'm still holding out LOTS of hope for you!
ReplyDeleteMo
Hi mo,
ReplyDeleteThanks for the reassurance-- just wanted to give you an update on our 6w5d ultrasound. News was great-- we saw the baby( measuring on time),yolk sac and HB at 137bpm. Next ultrasound is a long ways away at 8w4d-- RE is v confident that everything will be ok since this was a PGS (or CCS) normal embryo but as you know, the worry never stops until that baby is safely in your arms. Just want to thank you for your blog-- it has truly been a life saver for me. Thank you and wish you all the best in your journey as well. Hugs, C