Countdown to transfer

We leave tomorrow for Denver. All is in order for a Friday transfer. Gulp. I have been so slammed at work that I haven't been able to update the blog, or do much of anything (haven't packed for that matter - need to get to it right after this).

Estrogen and progesterone are in good shape (E2 = 655, P4 = 11.82 at last check). Lining is triple-striped and was 8.6 mm at last check (late last week).

I have been doing acupuncture two to three times a week for the past few weeks. Trying to reverse this blood flow problem to my uterus.

I started an anti-inflammatory cocktail today of prednisone, claritin, and pepcid that Denver is using with women with recurrent miscarriage. I have been on aspirin and medrol and estrogen patches and oral estrogen as well as progesterone suppositories for days.

We decided to throw Lovenox into the mix, even though Dr. Schl. thought it was probably unnecessary (the reproductive immunologist we saw last fall recommended it). I was really scared to take this after the things I've read on the Internet, worried the shot would be very painful. It is so no big deal, which is a relief.

All systems are go and we are approaching lift off.

I spent almost 30 minutes on the phone today with the head embryologist in Denver, trying to determine what embryos we will be transferring. After much soul searching and discussion between Will and me over the past couple of weeks - as well as today's long talk with the embryologist - we will be transferring two day 6s and a day 7. It is very scary to transfer three, but even scarier to imagine not getting pregnant at all. Because two of the three we are planning to transfer have already hatched and might not survive the thaw, we have backup embryos in line if needed (geesh, I hope not needed, but better to be safe than sorry).

It feels surreal to be on the cusp of the transfer. I can't believe we've finally arrived at this point. Honestly, it doesn't feel real in any way - I feel pretty detached about it. Maybe it will start to sink in soon?

A wonderful blog friend sent me a necklace that she wore during her successful cycle and that was passed to her from yet another blogger who wore it during her successful cycle. What an honor. What a beautiful thing. I will be wearing it Friday, hoping to catch a whiff of all the good luck this talisman has to offer. How incredible that through the words on our screens, we reach each other, touch each other, and connect across all the distance in the world. Amazing. I am so grateful. Just touched to my core.

And oh, God, maybe, could this maybe work?

Mo

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