Panicking

I started cramping yesterday afternoon and into today. No bleeding, thank goodness. I have been trying to tell myself that it's ok, that cramping in early pregnancy is normal (although I don't remember it from other pregnancies). But still, it just hasn't felt right. It has felt that there is a problem.

All night I dreamed of miscarrying. Of dropping betas, of blood on toilet paper. I awoke exhausted. And still cramping, still scared.

This morning, my husband Will offered to order another hormone check and another beta.

I gladly accepted, although I was also chastising myself for checking on things again.

But then we got the results.

My hcg is 1,702, which means it is now doubling every 55 hours, a 97% two-day increase. Not thrilled with this, but I think since the level is (finally!) in the thousands now, that this number does not necessarily indicate a deal breaker.

What has me most concerned is the progesterone level. It's only 10.92, which is WAY too low now that I am on suppositories three times a day and injectible PIO every other day (nurse told me it should be at least 20). Estrogen is fine at 543.

I have a call and email in to the nurse in Colorado to see if I should/can up the progesterone. I'm guessing I'm either miscarrying or the low progesterone is causing me to cramp like I am.

I will update when I hear from them. Maybe since we now know the progesterone is dropping, we can do something to save this from disaster. But I am scared. I am afraid this pregnancy may be ending.

Mo

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Update: The Colorado nurse finally called. She suggested I add another suppository and said the level wasn't really that low until I reminded her that I am also on PIO every other day. Then she agreed that it's dangerously low. I am now going to be on 1cc PIO daily + 100 mg Endometrin 3xs a day. I tried to get a sense from her about the prognostic implications of the dropping progesterone and the slower to rise beta. She wasn't too helpful in that department, unfortunately. She just suggested we try to be positive, etc. and said she wasn't sure what these changes might mean. Tomorrow we have an ultrasound scheduled with our local RE's office. My NYC RE will do the scan himself so we will get a chance to talk to him - and a chance to see if there is a gestational sac in the uterus - and hopefully yolk sac. It's going to be a long night tonight. Thank you all so much for your reassurances and for your kind words. It means so much to us and it really helps to read your stories and "hear" your thoughts. Will said so too. So thank you. From the bottoms of our hearts.

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