I've survived another day in the long slog of the 2ww. My God, is time creeping forward slowly!
I've been super careful with not rushing around and not lifting anything, including Ms. Magpie. This morning she woke up while Will was in the shower and I went and sat with her in her room, but didn't pick her up despite her pleas and questioning as to why I couldn't pick her up and why the doctors said not to. I don't know if it will make a difference, but the Denver clinic was adamant about no lifting above 10 lbs. and I don't want to have any worries afterward if this doesn't go as I hoped.
I still have no real symptoms that I would call reassuring. I'd love to feel uterine pulling feelings, which I have felt in some prior pregnancies but I've got none to report. I've had intermittent dull cramping. And a couple of sharper twinges. The most pronounced symptom has been pretty noticeable shortness of breath. My stomach is slightly off this morning as well. I'm guessing all of that could be due to the progesterone itself, so it's hard to get too excited about that.
I've been waking up every morning feeling a bit hopeless about this. This morning was no different. It made me feel better though that I remembered I used to feel most hopeless in the early mornings when in the early stages of pregnancy with Magpie too. So that helped take some of the credibility out of the feeling.
Yesterday, I had no patients scheduled and so went to the medical school library and worked on a paper describing a study I recently completed. I was surprised I was able to focus, and decided to just run with it. Who would ever think that academic writing could provide an escape from the mental torture of the 2ww! It felt good to be productive, and the paper is basically finished after yesterday's work. I want to read through it one more time carefully and then send it out to my co-authors for their final look. If I can get it sent out to the journal I'm aiming for by Friday or Tuesday, it will feel like a really good use of the two week wait!
Thank you for all of your support. It is so hard to believe this could work, but oh, I am really hoping it could.
More soon.
Mo
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I've been super careful with not rushing around and not lifting anything, including Ms. Magpie. This morning she woke up while Will was in the shower and I went and sat with her in her room, but didn't pick her up despite her pleas and questioning as to why I couldn't pick her up and why the doctors said not to. I don't know if it will make a difference, but the Denver clinic was adamant about no lifting above 10 lbs. and I don't want to have any worries afterward if this doesn't go as I hoped.
I still have no real symptoms that I would call reassuring. I'd love to feel uterine pulling feelings, which I have felt in some prior pregnancies but I've got none to report. I've had intermittent dull cramping. And a couple of sharper twinges. The most pronounced symptom has been pretty noticeable shortness of breath. My stomach is slightly off this morning as well. I'm guessing all of that could be due to the progesterone itself, so it's hard to get too excited about that.
I've been waking up every morning feeling a bit hopeless about this. This morning was no different. It made me feel better though that I remembered I used to feel most hopeless in the early mornings when in the early stages of pregnancy with Magpie too. So that helped take some of the credibility out of the feeling.
Yesterday, I had no patients scheduled and so went to the medical school library and worked on a paper describing a study I recently completed. I was surprised I was able to focus, and decided to just run with it. Who would ever think that academic writing could provide an escape from the mental torture of the 2ww! It felt good to be productive, and the paper is basically finished after yesterday's work. I want to read through it one more time carefully and then send it out to my co-authors for their final look. If I can get it sent out to the journal I'm aiming for by Friday or Tuesday, it will feel like a really good use of the two week wait!
Thank you for all of your support. It is so hard to believe this could work, but oh, I am really hoping it could.
More soon.
Mo
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Hang in there! If it makes you feel any better I felt just as uncertain during early pregnancy with my second long awaited IVF pregnancy as I did with my first (also long awaited) IVF pregnancy. Trying to second guess those early symptoms is impossible. Sending positive thoughts!
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