Sundays of grace #15

1. Despite everything, Will and I are in a good space together, which sometimes I think is amazing. We have worked hard to make sure the stress of all that we are going through does not harm our relationship. Through lots of hard work and attention, we are remaining firmly connected to each other even through this latest sorrow. I am so very grateful for this.

2. I wouldn't choose it, and I wouldn't wish it on anybody, but since it is happening anyway, I am grateful that we lost this pregnancy so early, rather than getting farther along, more hopeful, and more invested emotionally. Physically and emotionally it is easier - not easy, but easier - to miscarry at this early stage rather than weeks from now.

3. Although we lost this pregnancy and we are grieving deeply, I am grateful that we were able to experience being pregnant, even for a few days. Because the last three cycles have resulted in negatives, I had begun to wonder if we would ever be pregnant again. Of course, the goal isn't to just be pregnant, it's to stay pregnant and have a child, but even our few days of pregnancy gave us some hope that maybe we're getting even a tiny bit closer to our goal of having a family.